Day 3 of a Pretend Stay at Home Mom

 I am sitting here day 3 of my great congestion and pink eye rest at home. I find it amusing and disappointing that the lesson I get from a break from work is that I am not built for work. I honestly wished I learned this lesson when I was 22 and fresh out of college. I would of made some different decisions on how I would spend my money so I can work part time at the cusp of my 50s. 

Fucking 50...it sound ludicrous to even type this in . How is it possible that everything peaks my interest and nothing at the same time. 

In my three days of sick rest day: I cleaned my yard, meal prepped, planned vacations and tidy the house. I even watched hours of kdrama. I am sitting outside in my yard enjoying the sunshine but just enough for my feet because i don't dare to add anymore UV rays onto my face. Geez..it all feels so shallow and so lovely at the same time. 


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